My Maria

You were my Maria, but then the disease took you away from me

I want you back, back the way you used to be

I remember like it was yesterday, how you reached out to me and told me everything was going be okay

Please stop, just stop the insanity

My heart is so heavy with wanting to help and knowing I can’t, because you won’t let me in

I look to the God of my understanding and I pray and I pray and I curse the heavens above, how could this have happened, but I know how, I know how and why you have let me down

I’m scared and I’m angry, yet once again

The disease is a monster that lives in all of us, it doesn’t want us happy, it wants us dead

God Maria why did you let it out again?

Maria you are so beautiful of heart, mind, body and soul

Why did you never see in yourself what others saw?

The kind, pretty lady without scar or flaw

My tears are falling for you Maria, for Todd, Miranda and the beautiful lil’ Chloe Rose

Please come back to us, put down the drugs, start living your life right

Otherwise you will never see your family grow

You are kind, loving and good

You are a beautiful child of the universe

You have touched my life like no one else could

My hope is that you don’t lose the battle before all becomes clear

When you are ready Maria, I am here