Ache

 

I ache for you, my lover……..

I long to touch, I long to kiss, to hold you

I wonder is this all too much, too soon?

I love when I hover above you and I smell you and I want you

I hold back as long as I can until it all becomes too much and I have to touch you and I need to taste you with my tongue

Oh, my dear love what have we gone and done?

I could bury myself into your soul forever and never be satisfied

This passion I feel for you burns hot and bright and I sometimes wonder if this longing will ever be pacified

I ache for you, my lover……..

Questions of Love

LOVE!

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE IN LOVE?

HOW DO YOU ACT WHEN YOU’RE IN LOVE?

APPARENTLY I DO NOT KNOW THE ANSWER TO EITHER OF THESE QUESTIONS

IS THERE EVEN AN ANSWER TO BE HAD?

THESE ARE THE THINGS I PONDER AS I SIT HERE AND THINK ABOUT HER,

ALWAYS IT IS ABOUT HER

OUT OF 24 HOURS IN A DAY I THINK OF HER ALWAYS, EVEN AS I SLEEP I DREAM OF HER

I KNOW I AM NOT PERFECT AT THIS THING CALLED LOVE, I FLOUNDER AND I FALTER, I CAN SAY THE MOST ASSININE THINGS AS MY INSECURITIES GET THE BETTER OF ME

AM I AFRAID OF THIS THING CALLED LOVE? NO, I LOVE LOVE

NO, I’M AFRAID OF THE HURT THAT COMES FROM MY PAST EXPERIENCE WITH LOVE, OF HER PAST EXPERIENCE WITH LOVE

SO WHY DO I MAKE THIS LOVE SUFFER BECAUSE OF PAST LOVE? WHY CAN I NOT LEAVE THE PAST IN THE PAST?

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE

SO MANY QUESTIONS SEEM TO GO UNANSWERED WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE

SO I GUESS I WILL KEEPING ON LOVING HER, AS IF I EVEN HAVE A CHOICE IN THE MATTER

SHE HAS CAPTIVATED MY HEART, HAUNTS MY SOUL AND OCCUPIES MY MIND

I AM IN LOVE...... AHHH, SWEET LOVE

HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?

 

YET ANOTHER QUESTION TO BE HAD FOR LOVE!

LOVER

 

OH HOW I LOVE YOU BUT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WILL YOU

BECAUSE I WONT TELL YOU WHAT I ALREADY KNOW

I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU FROM THE MOMENT I SAW YOU
BUT I WOULDN’T TELL YOU THEN WHAT I ALREADY KNOW NOW THAT
THE FEELINGS YOU PROVOKE INSIDE ME, HAUNT ME AND BERATE ME, MY UNDYING LOVE  FOR YOU IS KILLING ME, INSIDE OF ME I HIDE FROM MYSELF AND I TURN IN DISGUST

I DON’T KNOW WHY I GO ON AND ON AND TORTURE MYSELF WITH YOUR PRESENCE, BEING NEXT TO YOU AND FEELING YOUR SOUL IS LIKE MY HEART PAYING PENANCE FOR LOVING YOU LIKE I DO AND I WILL AND CANT STOP.
 OH GOD I CRY OUT IN PAIN WHEN YOU TOUCH ME, HOLD ME, KISS ME, YOU PLAY SO INNOCENT  WITH MY FEELINGS OF LOVE AND ADORATION, YOU REALLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW I LUST FOR YOU TO TOUCH ME WITH DESIRE, HOLD ME WITH LONGING AND KISS ME WITH A PASSION THAT WILL NEVER DIE.

 JUST BEING NEAR YOU, ACROSS A ROOM BEGINS A LONGING I CAN NOT CONTROL STARTING A FIRE THAT TIME CAN NOT EXTINGUISH, I AM FOR EVER YOUR FOOL AND IT IS KILLING ME TO CALL YOU FRIEND WHEN I LONG TO CALL YOU LOVER

My Child

You are my child and I love you, but I can’t help you because you don’t want me to.
My heart breaks seeing me in you, I wish you wanted to be me now, not the me that I used to be. I will never give up on you and I will always pray for you, but something has to change and if it won’t be you, it has to be me. I need to be free of all this insanity. When you are ready I will be right here waiting, you will always know where to find me. I am your heart and you are mine. Mother and daughter…….. family.

Secret

I pray for God to take away this lust

But all I really want to do…… is say fuck it and run to you

I want to lose myself in your kiss and fall into your soul

I don’t care that you belong to another, I don’t care that another belongs to me

I want a dirty little secret that only you and I can see

Oh God, please, help.... ahh fuck it, I'm going to follow my obsession and keep it my secret

The Alignment

Sometimes it feels as though the stars are aligning to make all things possible,

I just have to reach for the impossible and make my life probable.

It is time to set all fear aside and reach for the stars and make this life my own.

I must live in my dreams to achieve my goals, I can not be stifled by others inability to move forward in their own life and dreams.

It is time for me seize this moment of reality and take what God has given to be mine.

Seasons

I’ve heard the term a reason, a season or a lifetime

But I ask, “What is the reason when someone promises a lifetime and leaves you before the end of the season?

Why run? Is it too hard to stick and stay?

I suppose if that is your level of commitment you should be on your way and quess what, I will be okay

I have fortitude, combined with a need to forgive and forget and I will persevere with all the love in my heart

I will make a fresh start, with people of like mind and like heart